Times, they are a-changing.

November 30, 2012

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Happy Thanksgiving!

November 22, 2012

Happy Thanksgiving! Of course today consisted of being surrounded by all family members but this year it actually wasn’t that bad. I had a great time visiting my side of the family. Everybody loved the kids outfits and the kids behaved great! It was a miracle. It was like a perfect morning after having a perfect night.

I’ve got to be honest. I didn’t pig out at all this year. I barely ate anything. I mean, I went to town on some sweet potatoes but other than that, not really. Which is probably for the best anyway. At least now I don’t feel all fat and bloated. (:

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So, DJ got a job. But it’s just not okay with me. I hate to be completely selfish but how am I supposed to handle being away from him six days a week!? Day and night. He got offered a job near New Jersey for home care. It’ll be 900.00 a week but at what cost is basically losing your husband? I can’t stop crying. I feel so completely heart broken. I know he has to do it. It’s either this or move in with his parents. My mind is racing and all I keep telling him is he’s not going. I’d basically be losing my best friend. Its just really hard to handle right now. Real tough. I’m hiding away in our bedroom because I don’t want him to see me crying. He’s already cried once and I don’t want to make the situation worse. We are both badly torn. We know that this is the best for our family. We need the money. He can’t stay on unemployment forever and its real hard surviving off of 230.00 a week with a household of four.

What am I going to do!?

An entry for not sleeping.

November 21, 2012

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12:12, make a wish.
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An entry about stress.

November 20, 2012

I don’t have too much that I have to say today. Things are alright. Well, kind of. I’m just constantly stressing and I’m honestly sick and tired of it. I feel like I wake up and I’m just instantly stressed. It’s always money. Money, money, money. I feel like a failed mother because I probably won’t be able to give my children the Christmas that they deserve this  year. I feel like even more of a failure because we’re considering moving in with D’s parents just so we can save money. I guess that’s what this blog really is about though. Me, trying to make a love nest with my family. How am I supposed to make a “home” in somebody elses house? Besides the fact that D’s father and I are always on and off and at the moment I believe that we’re off. He actually makes everybody tense when he’s around. Even D’s mother. It’d be real hard to live with a man such as himself. Thick headed, know-it-all who only thinks about himself. I mean, I’m stubborn and all but this man has got me beat. How am I supposed to live with somebody like that? It’s just very frustrating.

Onto other things..

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An entry for the day.

November 18, 2012

 Not too much is going on today. The husband, myself and of course the kids have been house sitting for the in-laws. The husband went to work early this morning so I spent my time cleaning up their house. Which I did way more than I probably should have. You see, they are hoarders so there is a lot of stuff everywhere. They aren’t nearly as bad as the people that you see on tv but they’re pretty bad none the less. So I cleaned and cleaned and changed babies and fed babies and cleaned and saved photos that I’m going to eventually burn onto discs for our children.

Elijah has officially rolled over from his back to his tummy and then again onto his back. I was so ecstatic! I’m so proud of this little bundle of joy! Like I said, probably bias but I’m so thrilled with his super strength.  He amazes me every day. I feel like he’s learning and doing new things every single morning. I love watching my children grow. It really has been the best blessing. They’re, in general, my best blessing.

 

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An entry for Elijah John.

November 17, 2012

 This is Elijah John. He was born August 7th, 2012 at 9:01 am. Although he is only three months old this little boy has such a personality! That morning was such a special morning. We happened to have a repeat c-section (I had to have a c-section with my first son because I wasn’t dilating.) because he was growing very big inside of my belly. He ended up weighing 9.15 lbs the day he was born. Some say that he was big but to me, he was just perfect. Those few days inside of that hospital were some of my favorites. Besides the nurses and doctors making it feel like home, Elijah was just the perfect addition to our ever growing family. He has blue eyes and dark brown hair just like his daddy. Actually, Jude Parker is a spitting image of myself when I was little and Elijah John is a spitting image of his father when he was little. It’s perfect. One blondie and one brunette. Elijah has always smiled with his eyes and he started smiling as soon as he was out of the womb! Of course, like many newborns, he slept most of the time for the first month. But he rarely cries, even now. He actually yells rather than cries. It’s kind of hilarious! When he does yell it’s only because he’s hungry. Let me tell you, that boy can eat! I’m breastfeeding along with bottle feeding. I try to get as much breast milk in as I possibly can but having a two year old also makes that very difficult. So I mainly breastfeed at night when Jude Parker is in bed and when Elijah needs to do night feedings. With bottle feeding he’s now up to five ounces a feeding! Hey, if the kid’s hungry, let him eat! Now, at three months, he can roll over from back to tummy; hold his head up, coo’s/laughs and can kiiiiind of sit up. He still falls over but he can actually hold himself there for a few seconds. Probably again bias but I’m amazed at his super strength. He has been such a blessing to his father and I. We’re so lucky to have two beautiful, healthy little boys!

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An entry for Jude Parker.

November 17, 2012

Jude Parker Williams, our oldest. Our bright blue eyed, big smiles and blonde haired little adventurer. I can still remember the flood of emotion that his father and I both felt when he took his first breath outside of the womb. We both just started balling our eyes out of joy.  We both fell in love with him instantly. Today, at the age of two, he’s an extremely curious, seriously smart, loads of fun toddler. He is also going through his “terrible twos” stage but it isn’t as terrible as some make it out to be. I believe the tantrums are a breeze. Ignoring is best. He seems to get over them pretty fast when I do ignore them. He loves being outside and adventuring. He’d rather play with sticks and make swords rather than play with toys that you buy from a store. More than likely a extremely bias thing to say but his intelligence is remarkable. He can already count to six, knows almost all colors, shapes and alphabet. He absorbs knowledge like a sponge and he enjoys it too! He’s an amazing kid and I’m so blessed to have him as a child. He means the world to his father and I.

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An introduction.

November 17, 2012

My name is Amanda. I’m twenty-four years old and am a mama to two beautiful boys and wife to a handsome fellow named Dennis. We’ve been together for several years and have had plenty of ups and downs. Together we’ve managed to make a little love nest. Our oldest son is named Jude Parker and is two years old. He was born on April 14th, 201o. Our youngest is named Elijah John. He was born on August 7th, 2012. They are both extremely bright boys. Also, most of the time, no-fus kids. Dennis and I really lucked out and are completely grateful for the health and happiness. We live in a little, itty bitty cottage in a small town in upstate new york. Unfortunately we rent but one day, and hopefully soon, we’ll have a place to call our own. My goal is to move up onto the mountains. When ever I am driving through up there I feel so content and I feel like I belong there. It’s one of my favorite feelings.

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